Just in case you were wondering....

For a long time --years-- I blogged about my weight loss struggle. I read and "blogrolled" many other weight loss bloggers, and found a lot of support, advice, and definitely an online community of like minded individuals.

Then I went back to OA, and tried to refocus a blog on recovery, instead of weight loss. I looked for a community of OA peeps online, and there were a few, but not many. I also got busy -- it became impossible to blog from work (which is what I had done previously), I got married, and my online community was replaced by my real-life OA community.

I worked the steps; I did not get abstinent. I had a meltdown in a meeting last fall and was going to leave OA. The next day someone from program came into my workplace. I was helping her find what she needed and she says to me, "Are you going to the meeting tonight?" It was a Monday night, and I had never been to the Monday night meeting. I should mention this woman was not at my weekend meeting where I had the meltdown; she had no idea I was fed up with OA. She had also never appeared at my workplace before -- and she hasn't come by since.

I went to the meeting. Someone I hadn't seen in a while was there and I asked her to be my new sponsor.

I now know I am in OA for good. I don't give a day to day blow by blow rundown of my eating follies and foibles on the blog. I don't chatter on to co-workers about what I'm doing and how I'm doing it. I talk about OA stuff with my sponsor, my hub and other OA people. A couple of close friends might hear a little now and then, but mostly I do not talk about my recovery with "civilians."

My food isn't perfect; I still pick up refined carbs and sometimes deep fried food. But I haven't had a binge in a year. I've lost 50 ponds. 99% of food -related drama has been removed from my life.

I'm working my program to the best of my ability, and, as they say, "it works if you work it."

I'm not sure what I am going to do with this blog. I kind of want to keep it, rework it, but ... I dunno. And I don't have to decide today. I can wait until my HP makes it clear to me one way or the other. Thanks for reading.